BurnYourLove

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Watch me burn,
My witness will be the sun:
Rip through my carbon
All this potion of hate and misery,
Already Death stalks us all
Lest I best it at its own game
Perhaps the Devil welcomes me quick,
Angels won’t tread, never will they,
Where Osiris once slept with Jupiter.

Kiss me then leave
Behind all we want to forget,
Let not one tear linger
Here that ashes choose to survive
Love and all, I have nothing no more,
I go forth like Job into the desert night
Awaiting the dawn of time
When we shall no more be apart.

Faith

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Too many people claim belief in God,
But if God told them: ‘Come.’
Too quickly they would run.

Too many people believe in Love
Too soon they forget Love hurts;
See they shut their doors,
Barr their windows from letting
Their hearts play again.

Too many people always on the look out for aliens;
They listen to the radio always
For signs of the great zombie apocalypse,
Digging underground tunnels that go nowhere, awaiting the day the polar caps melt.

If a god created the cosmos and the son,
How come he left them nameless?
If actually did send down his son
What mother did he impregnate?
Who am I to sit here asking dumb questions,
When clearly the world can see
That I am without Faith.

Waiting for God

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This is based on an occurring event in my country. Was written years ago, before I ever thought of actually becoming a writer.

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The taxi came to a halt at the mouth of the street. The middle-aged couple alighted from it and made their way into the midnight darkness of the seedy tenement jungle. They’d never set foot on this part of the city before, and their hands held each other’s as they navigated their way into it.

They located the house they were looking for near the end of the street. The buildings’ address corresponded with that which they had written on a piece of paper. The old woman was sitting by the front stoop waiting for them as she’d promised over on the phone earlier that she would. She got up upon seeing them and without a word exchanged, they entered the building. They made their way past a filthy corridor and out through the back of the building. A short walk past a refuse-littered alleyway and then they stepped into the light of another tenement building. They climbed up a flight of stairs to the second floor before the old woman came to a halt before a door.

“Have you made your mind on which one you want to have?” the old woman asked them. The couple shared a glance at each other before the wife answered for them.

“Yes, we have. We would like to have a boy.”

“You sure you don’t want a girl?”

“No, we’d like it to be a boy. At least someone who will carry on the family name.”

The old woman appeared indifferent to this. “No problem, though boy’s are a bit expensive. The price for one is two hundred and fifty thousand.”

The husband took out a bundle of money from the inner pocket of his robe. “I have it all here,” he said before handing it over to the old woman who took her time counting it. She smiled at them when she was through.

“Both of you wait here,” she said and then gave a signal tap on the door before entering the room. She came out with a cloth-wrapped bundle in her arm, which she then handed over to the couple. The wife spread out the cloth to appraise the sleeping feature of the baby boy. The husband touched one of the baby’s hands and was rewarded by its feeble response.

“Perhaps some other time you can come back for another,” the old woman said as she led them out of the building, happy from the sale. “If maybe you want twins, we have that one, too. Or perhaps you would like triplets. That too can be arranged.”

When they returned to the front of the former building, the wife, whom since her marriage had found it difficult to conceive, asked: “I’d just like to know one thing. The children, what happens to them if no one ever shows to buy them?”

The old woman’s smile turned hostile. “Nothing happens to them. They simply wait for God to show up and claim them. Good night.”

The couple made their way back to the mouth of the street, a new companion in their hand to stem down the pain of bareness. All of a sudden the world felt all right for them as they stood there smiling at themselves, waiting for an empty cab to ferry them home.

 

Lonely Road

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Lonely is the road
Especially at night,
So afraid, so anxious was I
To get to the other side of town
No one by my side to hold my hand,
Nothing except the roaming wind
Shaking the tree branches.

I want to stop –
The destination isn’t too far, and yet it was – I could make it another day.
But I know another day will come
Just like this,
And here I will be indecisive as today . . .

I brave my heart as I walk
And like that, the road isn’t so lonely after all.

Return of the Great Depression

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I finished work on a new novel yesterday.
Wrote ‘The End’, and that was it
Over and done with,
My lonely sickness arrived seconds later
I call it the Great Depression
I’m now the world’s saddest man.

But I’m not suicidal:
An African is never one.
We’re too worried of what happens to our soul if ever we force ourselves to bite the bullet,
Easy if you’re an American
Hard if you’re from the Motherland.

Still I’ve no choice but to ride
This depression train
Ride it till it let’s me off.
In a day or two
Maybe even hours from now,
I’ll be back on my feet again
I’ll be writing again,
The lonely sickness will depart
Wait for its next return trip
Next time I get done with another work.

Into the New . . . Leaving the Old

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Jan. 1st.

You wake up into the early down of the New Year with so much expectations on the mind. Like been born anew, wanting all dreams and desires fulfilled before summer . . . Yet its still winter. The sky is ocean-blue with wisps of clouds, but the wind is merciless against your huddled face.

So much to dream, and little or no time to brush your teeth.

By this time last year, I was coming awake in my friend’s apartment in Mount Vernon, New York. I wasn’t happy. Or rather I wasn’t content with where I was starting. I’ve lived under people before, so its gotten easy for me to know when my stay isn’t welcomed anymore. Of course I would have packed up and left, but if only I knew where to go. The weather forecast wasn’t helping either. I’d have loved to head down south. Too bad the borders wouldn’t open to an Immigrant traveler/writer like myself.

I was waiting to attend a writers conference in New York City that was several months away at the time. My visa was meant to expire in the summer. I stayed with my friend another two months, after which I became homeless. Picture a foreigner in the States, spending homeless nights at the NYC Port Authority building, and you’ll know what I mean.

But who was I to know 2013 would start out so interesting? And now it’s 2014. My God, where did all the previous months go? Into the new, I guess.

Wouldn’t we all want to know where we will be by summertime. Would we have changed by then. And if by chance we have . . . Into what?
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